As some of you will know, I've been a bit fed up recently. I'm feeling a bit better this week - had a good chat with HR about the job I didn't get and came out of the meeting feeling far more positive about things, and having doubled the dosage on my tablets I'm feelling a bit better on that front too.
The nagging pain in my side has gone today which is lovely and makes a change. I was really starting to get fed up with that!
It's been a while since I shared any writing with you and while going through some files looking for something else I came across this, which I wrote when I was really down a while ago and seemed kind of appropriate to share:
Retrograde Step
Wrapping itself around me
I feel its cold tendrils worm their way to my core.
Suddenly the whole purpose of life is gone and everything is a chore.
A friendly smile brings floods of tears,
A pat on the back, a quivering lip.
Slowly, surely the clouds slip over the sun.
And yet there is a consolation to all this,
It’s a place I’ve been before.
It knows me.
Like a life-long comforter,
only instead of uplifting,
reassuring like a
much loved teddy bear,
It drains, depletes me
Saps me, debilitates
Depression is at home once more.
